Grey Sheep and Blasphemous Shepherds
A Night of Wonder pt. III
What becomes of the dead?
WHITE WHITE WHITE
Until we drown in the darkness within
I drown your love and with your vagina and the lips of skin that you flap in my mouth that licks tortures you suffocate me though I love and wish nothing more than to give you a fuck and a sex and a hard cock to thrust through your very being and soul.
BLONDE HAIR
EYES COLD
THOUGHTS OF ANOTHER
FEELING FOR ANOTHER
YOU LOVE another
YOU BLEW HIM WITH ME IN MIND!!!!!!!
Jag älskade dig. Jag älskar att se dig knulla andra [I loved you. I love to see you fuck others]
You sucked his cock and I stood next to you in the window and watched. Stroked my penis and mastrubated. Because I love you.
You are leaving.
I hope you know.
My life is based on you.
I do everything for you (Still! As I promised even though you only see me through a haze of hate)
and one day I will make a million men and women bow before me in worship.
If you will not have me then – no one will.
It’s a promise.
I assure you I will take the life of all you love if you love another one again but I shall strangle their corpses and snap their necks until their bodies are tortured – and suspended through hooks and cords and tears and nerves put ablaze with alcohol and intoxicated lust to penetrate another – (ALLA KNULLAR HELA JÄVLA TIDEN [EVERYONE FUCKS THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME]) varför suger du av alla killar utom mig? [why do you blow all guys except me?] – we did grind and force love upon our animated corpses and you accepted but took another.
Saken är den att jag faktiskt älskade dig. [The thing is that I actually loved you.]
Men du förstår inte [But you don’t understand]
eller Jo – det gjorde du (du GÖR FORTFARANDE) [or Yes – you did (you STILL DO)]
men tänker bara på dig själv [but only think of yourself]
och inte hur jag kämpat [and not how I have fought]
för att glömma dig [to forget you]
It is easy for the bold to neglect a coward even though he tries to be the one on top.
Jag drömde om en annan. [I dreamt of another.]
Det var dig. [It was you.]
Innan du dog. [Before you died.]
It was us.
Roaming the guilded beaches.
Varför kom du tillbaka? [Why did you come back?]
I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you
And you loved me.
What happened?
We were in the same bed.
With our clothes on
(nu vet du att jag pratar om dig. Förlåt men jag gör allt för dig. Jag ska ta över världen. Vi ska härska tillsammans)
[(now you know that I speak of you. I’m sorry but I do everything for you. I shall conquer the world. We shall rule together)]
BLONDE HAIR
EYES OF FROST
I was so sure you would love me.
You did not. Why?
WHY WHY WHY HWY HWY HWY HWYWYHWY WYHWY WHY WHY WHYWHW YW HWY?
Jag älskar dig [I love you]
I saw you whisper it to him. He is your friend.
Yet so am I –
Now when you have refused me to be something (ANYTHING) else.
Dawn will break through blackest night
How I wish it was true…
I know I had the chance – I know it could be us!
Yet I made a mistake somewhere along the way.
If I could turn back time
and redo the past five years of my life
Even though I follow the highway
in the path of my life
and am succeeding (hopefully) i forgot the minor stops along the way.
You were one of them.
The major stop.
The only stop.
I know now that by going to the land of dreams and opportinuty I will lose everything
especially since I have been taken by another.
Jag älskar dig… [I love you…]
It keeps getting worse! I get a big heavy black cloud in my chest when I read this!
You shouldn’t. You’re the one that keeps the black clouds away 🙂
I really like the mood of this; it’s just so chaotic and brilliantly mad! If this reflects something you’re going through, hope things get better. You’ve always got writing to turn to, at least. Words are more loyal than people …
Thank you! No it doesn’t don’t worry. I am in a very happy place in real life no so you shouldn’t worry 😉 I think I can write dark things this because I am so happy I can distance myself from it.. I think haha
this piece really touch me, I feel the heavy feelings from each lines, I got so much flow of emotions from me after reading this, hope things get better…
I am glad it touched you! I was touched myself when I read it. The prose is chaotic and vile yet completely honest in a horrible way. I am glad to say this poem doesn’t reflect myself at the moment. Otherwise I’d be in a very dark place haha